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brought iPhone on last sat

weeeeee

im soooooo busy download-ING apps, photos, videos all day long

*laugh out loud*

though breaking of my current contract cost me quite a bomb....

but i feel so oh my satisfied!!!! at last!!!! a decent phone finally.. (after staring @ my Nokia E72 for 17mths)

one client even tell me his maid wouldn't even want it if he gave to her free

i was thinking like 'what the fuck...........?'

life's' still the same for me...

even interns suan me for having 'No Life...?!'

i dare them to repeat that once they grad into the workforce in future..*chills*

coming Vesek' day i will be working as well

but im looking 4ward... buahahah~

since i had nth to do on that day too.....

nameless entry

wkend bells ringing again!!!!

yeahhh... later will be gg out

before anyth, i guess i need to post sth here...

i think theres no true ideal job in this world

Y ley? coz I used to think I must find a job which I have interest in.

but realised it might not be entirely true because my interest may not be my strength and in the end I may start hating my interest as well

that's the scary part isn't it?

although im truly not happy and feel so stressed out now

I think i should challenge myself for a longer period, I never know

just received my name card yest...

i kw its pretty late for me who had already work more than 6mths

and the title thingy doesn't seem so glamorous

and i hate to admit this to myself looking at my name card made me kind of depressed

apart from the coy name

so i just tell myself don't be bother with it too much either

at least i'm fetching a decent pay home every mth

be contented!!!

1 of my colleague telling me to rise the ladder and salary scale

another telling me to heck care in job since we are only getting fixed salary every mth

in terms of colleagues and leisure talking, the 2nd one might be talking sense

but looking from another perspective, i hate to admit he really deserves to be only a small AM although he work for like 7 yrs already

if i were him, its either i ran off long long ago or shld have rise more than that

there's no right or wrong ba

interns are coming and just as what i expected, no1 had the time to teach them, let alone bother to talk to THEM. *rolls eyes*

but i find myself squeezing time to self-intro to them lar... =X seeing them so pathetic is like looking at me in the past

i'm assigned to teach one of them. my intern frm SMU looked cute and shy, but i felt i'm kinda 'old' as compare to him

but anyway, its a eye candy to add into this stressful dept

heard my broker colleagues joking about i am interested in 'fresh meat'

and giving me those 'looks'

i don't give a damn too. hah anyways, its just office crapping

but i'm secretly thinking to myself i m lucky not to take the 2nd intern ...

always talk as if his dad owns the road

pathetic looks + arrogant pea brain

luckily hes not under my care. HA~ (one little thing to be glad about)

i was like seriously thinking to myself...

handling my work independently already formed a level of stress

having to cover my mentor duties while shes away one level up

To top it off brilliantly, i still need to babysit 1 intern

plus my PC was like "computer of the year" which cannot run more than 3 or 4 large programs at one time

i just hope i won't end up with lots of negative vibes

I even feel nauseous thinking about it...

heck... just enjoy my precious wkend for once!!!

2-Headed

today topic will be on 2-headed snake

i can self-proclaim there ur some of these pple in my dept, based on my 7th mth observation! wahahaha

the no.7 sound so weird!!!!

when pple gt recognized or recognition from bosses

reaction wise could be ..... over-reacted with all the 'WA' and 'I FINALLY MAKE IT', act cool yet damn elated inside? or laughing hysterically at himself/herself?

mine reaction was all like 'hur?' , 'ur u serious?' , 'i dont think im up to the expectation?'

some of u might be wondering...

SIGH~~~~~SIGH

indeed its appreciative, big boss personally came over to my quiet,messy, suffocating cubicle (sound like toilet?!?!?!?!!?)

kinda expressing his 'gratitude' of me working so hard... (note there's no '' in my hard word. lol)

his gratitude involves ...

asking me to claim OT allowances (personally i feel its kinda cheapskate, do u think i work so much for just a mere $12 allowance? i work cz u ask me too... lol)

offering me a special off-in-lieu and one day pay (what makes u think i do not have enuff leave... i had more than enuff leave and MC to cover my ass.. most imptly, i will be the jealousy of every1... dun even want to think abt the consequences)

recommending me nomination for service award (seriously i dun give a damn to all this service crap. im smart enuff to kw this is 1 of the tactic to tie me dw in this place...)

seriously... do i think too much?

just feel theres always a reason for pple to do sth

esp when the environment is oreadi cultivating it silently

im not some dumb ignorant ass who will slog all my life, giving my life to coy and hoping to receive return in exchange

the world is cruel... realistic... and 2 headed

working hard doesn't mean u will get appreciated

slacking doesn't mean u will get knock down (must slack in a smart way!)

PR-ing/flirting doesnt mean u ur gd for nth

loyalty and punctuality doesn't guarantee promotions

hiak hiak hiak

who kw i might be really getting that award....

good luck to me then

it just makes it tougher for me to hop ships

y do i sound so depressing when i'm actually on the receiving side?

sometimes i wonder if i think too much?

from my theories, receiving side will always involve a price to pay?!

no free lunch in this world

do i really think too much or have they see through me..??

where ur the poachers? LOLx

NameKess

i'm starting to get sway

my beliefs and philosophy

somehow, i hate my job

but not to the extent i will throw up and cry JESUS

somehow, i loathe what im doing everyday

but not to the extent of sobbing and complaining aloud

somehow, i am thinking of quitting

but not to the extent of really quitting .. u know.. just thinking

something still lingers in me....

the experience, the money, the exposure, the benefits

grrrrrrrr~~~~

everytime when i feel so stressed up, one thought of having a stable flow of $$$ NV fail to delight and satisfy me ~

is that normal?!?

perhaps i am a worshiper of money?!?!

i don't think i am this money gobbler to this extent?!

but anyway, though today can be considered the worst day of the week

i am glad my mentor is with me,

pretty weird aint it? when i hate her so much in my previous entry....

cursing her, sceaming at her....

yet i appreciate her now?!

things ur just so contradictory and complicated ...

but something amazing happening today!

heard a familiar voice ~ though i couldn't recognize in the 1st place

shhhh~ ha-has

自我催眠

催眠,催眠,催眠...

喔!!

May

i hate this month

month of May

*clench teeth*

lol

i will be working night shift sooner or later... wonders if its good or bad

there will be 1 new mgr and 1 new staff joining in may and june

wonders if its good or bad

been telling myself.... dun be bother with all this ba

but just cannot kick that out of mind

subconsciously, my mind will be filled with work

horrible! terrible right?!!

mother day coming and i had no idea what to buy or do....

there's so much things for me to do... urghs

After that call

wishing i could take leave on mon

wishing i could fake sick

wish everyone would be kinder to us

esp after that call

don't wish forever pple are barking at us

that's too pathetic

wonder why do some people just able to take it

so amazing...

i rather be the one barking at pple

i rather be the one having the 'final' say

that 'explosive' is my idol!

she might have get my meaning somehow... or partially?

anyway, i wouldn't be bothered with her, not that i want to care too

all her characteristic....

its hers to keep, definitely not my style

as a friend, i do feel sorry for her at times, as a colleague, i thought she doesn't deserve my sympathy at all

i even thought she deserve it. Ain't me bad?

in this world, wad you reap isn't always the result of what u sowed

i am trying hard to put across

though its dangerous

she just doesn't get it. Plain straight. Just like e airport runway.

keep rushing in front w/o seeing the end of the runway

is a dead end

anyway

i will stop all the revealing from now onwards

very dangerous for me

i will just smooth ard n get the most out of it before ...

as usual, only caller and me share same sentiment.

no one will know what im talking abt right?

its okay. haha