wkends

finally its saturday~! wkends reallie came far too slow~!

while im @ work, my emotions ur like riding roller coaster...

v. stress up, nervous and anxious in everything i do. Let me tell U, I can even shake physically. sense no confidence at all.

i felt im being constantly pushed to my limit everyday N constantly feeling damn helpless~

sometimes i can even pondered to myself if this is the right job for me... but sometimes i would think it can be a good exp for me...

There will b complicated cases everyday, different Q&A n new things for me....

sometimes i realli wish reallie wish they could reallie let this poor girl to rest for a while to digest before throwing more and more ~

my supervisor and mentor basically walk the same direction n maybe others too? idk

blame it on me~ im still unfamilar with the platform.... plus i can feel xtreme pressure to learn fast cz training period would soon be over~

if die, die lorrr... my last resort ... let nature take its course...

tday didnt feel so tired as compared to past few days =)

just return home from Town Hall (an annual talk hold by our GM)

i was lucky to be a pig gobbling over the buffet provided. hahaas the buffet really A LOT OG GD FOOD WOR....

as usual, i PILE as much food as possible on my plate before taking it back to our dept to eat in peace hehee

i was pretty glad and fortunate to have a nice mentor. weee~ shes like my right and left hand liao....

days without her will be hell. LOL yeaaaa

tday went down wib my mentor to watch how she taught one client to trade online~

the client was like.... sleeping and "ohh yea yea yea" when she explain the whole system to him....

hahahas.. cant blame uncle feeling lost and worried trading online... its not hundreds.. but thousands of money at stake

Had been learning how to conv wib clients on and off.... but still... i dont tink i can handle my work indep even after a mth. lets see how it goes bah

boss was lamenting tday to everyone our dept one word "NO STANDARD" bla bla bla.... dots and all sorts of negative things.... plus will plan to review everyone KPI next year

luckily i wasnt involved in it for now but still will start to feel a bit worried lorrr.... god knows his standard is HOLLYWOOD standard plus BOLLYWOOD temper

stress!~ damn! @_@ i hope we wont cross fire in future~!

one good thing to be happie about~ i PASSED my online test on Anti-Money Laundering!!! my ist attempt during lunch-in tday!!! wahahaaa... everyone was saying its the toughest of all the tests... heng i pass it @ one go. Passing marks is 75% wor~ luckily i gt 80% =)

4 more to go!!!

tday is my first day coming into contact wib securities clients~

i trembled, panic and answer questions like shit. haha! luckily boss was on leave

currently my status would be on job training....

thanks to my mentor =) loves herrr..

she kinda helps me a lot~

im extremely looking forward to 4th Nov....

will not be working but gg orientation =)

4th, 5th, 6th, sat, sun PLUS

i had taken one day leave in lieu on 9th Nov.. thanks to deepavali

A LONG LONG BREAK FOR ME! wahahhaa~ i can date all my gers le ^^

4th day

My colleagues contribute all this cute muffins to me tday *gee*

















tday gt interviewed by boss again. Alone somemore. zzzzzz i happen to be the last to leave. My whole mind basically overwork plus i simply lost track of time

Intend to switch off all the lights when i walked out and boss came just shoot in. I was abt to leave when he called me over & asked me some lame qns.

I reckon hes kinda wanna test me out. Asking me whether do i feel like quiting the job. Of cz i denied confidently and he seem happy?

I guess he must hv realise im overloaded. To me, the training is gettin a bit overloaded.... plus there ur lots of other extra stuffs i need to clear.

Theres a health talk next week plus i will need to sit-in after work for some demo sessions wib ard 30 coy trading clients on thur. I think theres another finance talk the week after next followed by my 3-day orientation in early Nov. My 5 pending course i haven even registered >.<| Shit.

My schedule from nw to Nov ur basically fun-packing =/ *Sigh*

i am wannabe stress .... as i could only digest 50% of what im taught.... how????

but luckily tday im smart enuff to know that boss is trying to assess me... so i didnt really mention anyth negative ...

EndNote: I tink my KPI ur going to churn out soon. God bless~

2nd Day

Its the 2nd day in my new job ... dangerously its only 2nd day

im starting to get a bit of worried and panicky when heard of colleagues gg on block leave... esp my mentor.. *wails*

Colleagues' leave/holiday = me alone handling covering their work = immed death = ?

luckily... my mentor aka friendly girl... shes will be on block leave for a week somewhere in Dec. Nt now =) HENG~ im actually tellin her im so happi shes not on leave this mth. =.=|

Currently right now, other than training, memorizing and trying to understand every single web page of my coy trading platform.... i still had 5 pending online courses that required me to pass it within 3 mths. Plus a 3 day orientation for newcomers coming 4th Nov.

Tday, my mentor actually help me applying the orientation, closure of my YIP account and opening of a staff trading account. =/ im totally lost... so was like ... luckily... shes helpful

my lotus notes aint setup, internal CDP (central depository) wasnt setup too... notes everywhere and my brain cells scattered all over~

luckily... the internal msn was setup for me... and there ur only 1 familar contact in my list. Nicholas. LOL.

kinda boring... couldnt chat, no time for chat and definitely stress

heard there will be another new guy (same as me) reporting to work early Nov. Im basically waiting to see whos is he.... hope hes someone nice n friendly. That will do myself good as i will be working with him in future if there ur any night shift. Two of us. If hes a eye-candy... that wld be good. LOL =/ ok. Stop.

my boss is scary and fierce?! *Sigh* One lunch treat with him alone yestd nearly cause my heart to stop. I really wonder to myself how i pass his interview last time manz =/

some of the things he said to me cause me to be doubtful, contradicting and a bit of ridiculous?! the things he chatted with me ur more towards personal life... so it was like... kinda awkard to say too much >.< and the funny thing is i dont even know if i had said too much to him =/

but i can sense he had high expectation of me... zzzzz. Thats bad news

EndNote: Jia U lw!

Eye Candy

Last Day @ SD

Pressies, hugs and many~

8th OCT marked the end of my Ist perm job

12th OCT will mark a new fresh start~

Thog i aint yet recovered from today's emotions

I m glad i had met them

Pris, him, Mr A and Mr B.... i will rem =)

PLUS im super duper glad my poly peeps who came for the gathering!

althog i knew i was acting very strange N weird~ they ur quite patient wib me... heeeezz

i dont like pple to see me emo.. and emo this word certainly doesnt fit me at all =)

WOAH.. tml i can sleep till the sun shine on my butt! before i go dw tml to OCBC to have my certs audited!!! plus opening a bank account wib them....! and i will b meeting LOVIA finally.... weeeeeeeeeeeeeee i love gossips =))

hope Mr A and B will update me tml is there any comment on the pressie... i hope there ur.. but even if there isnt....

doesn't matter...

i hope they will see what i wrote on the card ...

@ Cloudy @

A lot of things happening at one go... during work tday

I guess i will definitely feel lonelier after tml

cz i will seek another new life, new job up up & away next week

tml will be my official last day @ SD

There ur 2 green pressie on my desk nw.... =)

One for my dear Pris, many words & its a pity i couldn't contid to bond with her

Another for my dear senior mgr. I alwys fall short of words facing him. Mix feelings always emerged within me & seriously i dunch even kw wads wrong with me!!!

pple might be guessing... he mus be old! Nah... base on my observation & tday evesdropping... hes only 29-30

alrights, i had spent like one whole week thinking wad to buy and how to wrap.... *rolls eyes*

reallie hope they will appreciate my little thoughts >.<

seriously, i dont kw wads wrong wib me but i seem to be troubled whole day in office becz tml will be my last day....

on one side, i kinda will miss some of my colleagues?!?!?! tho they werent very close to me yet...

on another side, i kinda worry my working environment in my new job?!?! tho i haven even start!

tday there was a surprise ice-cream treat by him to every1. Althog i do not kw the exact reason, but i do feel a bit touched ~

Hes charming to me ... not as if hes super handsome, had looks of stars.... and neither he had the perfect body of jihoo or he had the face of vern suity?!?! Isnt really v. tall and wasnt very young?! LOL

to steer clear of misunderstanding, I am not infuated with him or having any other thoughts...

Its jus that.. this is the guy who will alwys make u turn ur head around when u hear his voice...

this is the guy who alwys nv fail to make u chuckle to urself whenever u happen to evesdrop his conversation with other colleagues?!

and this is the guy who might brighten out ur day jus becz of little things?

honestly, i do think i am out of my mind!

i wonder how will him and pris react when they saw my pressie ~ bla bla bla la la la

i wun expect them to rem me.... nor contact me .... or even recognise 10 yrs down the road....

but it will b just a short experience for me to rem =)

i believe there will be more to come in future =)

when im gg home wib one of my colleagues, overheard sth which makes me "ku xiao" ~ something close to my heart

another heartbreaking news which follows urrrrrr.... one of my lunching peeps... who had been working for abt 1 year... tendered!

i was utter shock when he msn me to pass him my sample resignation letter >.<

my office nw ur basically obviously facing a CRISIS

pple are taking long leave, holiday leave, maternity leave & obviously there wasnt anyone substituting me yet! Heard frm the HR they ur still hiring in progress~

bad spells... i tink my poor mgr will overwork sooner or later~

i wasnt really sure of my lunchin peep why he resign... but he told me its due to extreme stress.

Hes jus 24 lorrr... oreadi seem the 2nd person to overwork?!

several female colleagues approach me tday for small chats... u-know-chats & most of em seem to feedback they ur satisfied wib me altho i am very quiet. HAHA!

wad to do... wads done is done! altho leaving my ist perm job has its pros and cons, i wanna look forward! forward and forward....

im sure to miss his 99% charisma, miss lunchin peeps (i had their contacts) and pris (i gave mine contact to her le)~

*Sigh*

decide to pen these down. =) tday is sunday and tml is morning. A big contrast b/w moods and environment. Yestd went out with family to chinese grd for some lantern events. I swear there wont be a second time if possible i will try my best to avoid it.

friday after work rush for my uni peeps gatherings & saw so many familiar faces! *HUGSZ* hahaha... i seem to b missing every1 although my face doesnt show anyth. haha!

glad that everyone have somehow found our own way into the realistic real world... though i can sense that every1 like me... still find it hard, trying to adjust ourselves into the working world.

I wanted to buy some chocolates for my colleagues (frm what vern suggested... chocolates everyone!!! HAHA! ). Though im still very strapped of cash, i still felt a sense of gratitude

towards my new mgr... Pris. though she didn't taught me a lot becuz she knows im leaving soon...

towards Mr. A, though i hold some biasness towards him at first and even now

towards Mr. B, though he always stone and got lost in his anime & cosplay world... (hope he can find a partner sn. HAHA! Hes actually nt bad-looking LOL)

towards Alison, shes the girl who always lend me her keys to the ladies loo (ITS damn funny the ladies alwys AUTO-LOCK by itself!)

and finally towards my ops senior mgr, Nicholas. A charming n humorous guy. Though he alwys smooookes... The car he owned is hip. (love the music he played inside his car! HAHA!)


EndNote: I want more social life!