... im official GONE...

Tday finance test was so dampening till my stomach feels so full. How weird~!

How on earth can i jus throw 9marks away which im suppose to have *mastered* these. 21 out of 30. whether i fail or pass will depends greatly on my pathetic fate. sis said I'd jus need to treat it as a motivation to stretch far a bit during my finals! i attribute all these to myself then. Too much olympics. Serve me right! lack of sth, uncertainty or lose focus?

I want only only a P.A.S.S.

Thanks to all the little gifts. Heex. Dun like the feelin of gettin one more yr older. grrr

No time. No time. i wish i cld only think of sleepin, shittin, eatin, shopping then back to sleepin. LL. Gg to blog abut myself since im gettin so bored of what to blog. I consider myself average-short. Occasionally like to complain and grumble (i kw im right) I have A TUMMY (Unfortunately, my favourite foods include milk and cheese, cheddar flavoured Ruffles and similar, waffles (nt too hard or too soft) and mint ice-cream, durians & chicken (i hate roast ones), Vietnam delicacy, Thai (Only pineapple rice). I can be picky but yet not picky at times. A bit eccentric. A bit weird. But overall, i think its alright. I have a weird nose bridge. My eyes... a bit too black. My hair behaves stright to my expectation (provided i do homework everyday). I will have massive scallops soon if I don't watch my diet. My face... I dont like. A bit too blur and a bit too foreign. But i am nt too sad. Henceforth enjoy owning mirrors. I always own duplicate stuffs since i always lost em. A food waste publicly but nt domestically. But at least im honest to blog all these =]]

I’m feeling inclined to letting my own work rant out now. It’s terribly breakin-bones. Ok it’s fun in a work way, meaning I like the stuff I get to do. Working can be a de-stress for me. Yes it’s interesting. Nevertheless, I usually have friendly companion lunch partners. And for that I am infinitely grateful. I find myself looking forward very much to whatever happy distractions and activities there are in store. And I wake up much happier on days when the clock strike lunchtime. TaTa

"If I am honest I will admit that I have always wanted to avoid love. Yes give me romance, give me sex, give me fights, give me all the parts of love but not the simple single word which is so complex and demands the best of me this hour this minute this forever."
Jeanette Winterson

see this --> I h.a.t.e hotmail. and bet me for once. My hotmail acc is so sucky problematic where i must spent at least half an hr opening a s.i.n.g.l.e doc.
My dear sweethearts and yan daos... pls dun try to send impt mails to my hotmail. Jus aim stright to my gmail and feel free to flood it watever (all my prev spree organiser like to flood here) and it will be a 99.9% chance of me opening within 24 Hrs. Gmail roxx like a.s.s. My gmail ish my chinese name (-surname) + 86. damn simple and no underscore. see. Gmail rox again. Lol

My blog is so terribly pink. My wish list is outdated (it should be about three times its current length, so take heed). The movies and stuff are, ok, still fantastic and will always be, but they're old. I'm too BUSY - to deal with all of the things at the moment. Piano lesson & a back-to-work for next week. Yuck

Went to a particular farm early in the morning wib my pa. Hes sucha a enthu middle-aged-personality. Early in the morning was frantically draggin us out frm bed to entertain us with his purposed farm trip. Hopped into the car with his friend and this was my biggest-mistake-of-hoppin. My canvas shoes gt into a pile-of-mud.

1) The food in there is G*O*O*D. Its so good it should be made a national treasure, locked up somewhere and chained in so that greedy creatures like me can't get at it. My butt feels extra heavy today, well surprise surprise. I'm glad I don't live there.

I'm so sleepy now i could just die. Happy belated birthday Singapore.

Wordy Post

I'm feeling disillusioned with self.
I know it's got much to do with the fact that after weeks of rushing sm essay (but I write very slowly) And also with the looming exams, two of which I am just refusing to think about; the mere mention of the last one is enough to send me into spasms of panic ....

But still.
I just can't quite see the point of it at the moment. I don't see the sense on investing time and effort and brain power on producing a beautiful, inspired essay when all that comes down to is this little alphabet thats your grade. And then its forgotten.
And lately I've realized that while I feel alot better about beautiful and inspired essays that doesn't mean I do better for them. And the last time I felt happy about writing an essay - meaning i felt like I genuinely cared about what I was writing - was when I wrote about "Salem Witchcraft and Abigail Willams's love turn betrayal" last time. It was so of a nice lit essay where i can write with thoughts coming in every line. This semester everything's just about meeting the deadline and handing something in. Ugh.

I've developed a really odd essay writing method. I would'nt even call it writing, it seems more like an act of compilation, oddly enough. What happens is
1. Trawl through journals and sch library, zap/borrow/copy as much material as it takes to make you feel safe
2. Read as much as you can without burning out eyeballs, type out whatever looks vaguely useful
3. Free associate and type out as much as you can possibly think of that might be vaguely relevant to essay
4. Stare at all the crap that's been typed out, think of intro, write first para.
5. Cut paste, cut paste, throw and cut paste and repeat until all the stuff that's been typed out has been reorganized

It's highly inefficient, but it almost guaranteed a coherent, if not particularly outstanding essay. It works for me... Ever since start of yr 2. Sad.

Better days must be ahead.

ugh! OK. I broke A PLATE, A BOWL and my hair straightener these few days.

LL. Breaking is nth. The most just throw lo. The plates and bowls... no one found out yet. Ye sh! Supply greater than demand. TA ta.. I'M SAFE! Great Cover-Up =))

Mine Hair straightener isn't really broken La. just is CRACK. Its my fault! I knew it. Cant blame weather. Cant blame the VS brand. Cant blame poor manufacturer. Used for almost 2 yrs... and finally it dies in my own hands...I shall arrange for a formal ceremony to send it off properly.

My mask had arrive. My bags had arrive. What else... O yea, my spree bra still sitting @ Taiwan. Gosh. Let it sit there for the time being, don't think i will need it nw. One of my off-shoulder clothes Ur reaching my place soon & had brought a nice floral spag top. Dunno why the hell i brought it. Jus saw its quite nice and my itchy hand went to click on the IBANKING and TH ATS IT.

Luckily the flora spag top looks very nice and in rich color. i think i will park it ist and giv it as a gift next time...

Nw waiting for my July pay! It will be due on 4Th Aug and imam so excited. Lol. Just cant wait to lay my hands on those $$$. "Gasy Ng... u Ur such a spendthrift!!!"

but i dont see the fuss. im jus using my own money & its shld be all right. Working and spending a cycle >.< Better comparing those gers out ther using other PEOPLE money to buy their OWN stuff. This is what i called... useless bunch of irritating worms!

Need to continue my SM essay once more. Was writing on porter this guy and i kept coughing! Think hes cursing me. Lol. These days im quite fascinated by the contacts ****** gave me. Hahaaa. Thanks ah. U haf finally make me vain for once. Last time i was too lazy and pek chey to put on contact cz its too painful! Guess im loving this brand nw cz of its comfy-ness. Im jus a noobie in contact but i spent like less than a min to take out both of the contact. Putting in time had decrease from ten minutes to five minutes. Think im gettin a hang of it now. Though if i wore for the whole day... my eyes feel damn tired. Perhaps its jus the startin... if im nt wrong... its the GEO brand

My friend was tellin me she kw one spree organiser who sell GEO contact for jus $18! For God sake... sounds pretty cheap.