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Bday matters had been resolving ard me these days. Sok bday is coming and i am thinking of getting her a decent treat or pressie. Only lovia support me. The rest of S6, i guess theres no one remembering it or borther abt it. Esther had been chiding me for being stupid to do so many things for pple despite the face these pple wont thanks me for it. Yesh, i know. I do know. Sok had drifted further n further away from us and the fact she even said things like .. she prefer her poly friends than us right in front of us once. The rest of S6 got pissed... guess i am only the one who still treasure her. Esther had reply me stright in my face she wont be sharing her present anymore and the rest did nothing... And the fact i dont even dare to tell them im now gg to give a treat to sok....

I think i must be very stupid. Stupid to treasure r/s a lot... Though friends come and go, i know! of cz! But still I wld like to make them happy.. at least during their bdays, if possible. As far as i can rem, i had been sharing and buying pressie every year to everyone bday whom i can rem w/o fail. Of cz, i am not the type who will take into account whether will i get back the same thing when its my turn. No point. I have even made effort to send bday wishes to "HI-BYE' friends every now and then though i didnt get any msg frm them when its mine day...... hahax. I dun mind lar. Thats y i say im stupid. People do take me for granted. I know. Some of my close friends had been telling me cz they cant bear to see all these happening and happening again. To the extent they had been telling me and i am close to my tears hahax... Of cz, i know they are telling me for my own good. I am jus a weakling.

I am currently not spree-ing and cutting down on eating cost... all becuz of bday shits... I dun even know those pple whom i had been giving pressie know this or nt. I am not rich nor working... but now i am cutting my own expenses becuz of their pressie. Damnit. Hahaa

Pardon me for ranting here. Jus felt a bit stupid y am i doing all these things. Dont count close friends... even friends that i had know for like less than 1 semester, i been sharing their present though i get nothing in return. I dun mind, frankly-speaking. i just wanna make them happy for that day....... seriously

Think abt it.... Do people who stick with you care abt you? Or do they did this just to get a companion? Do they cry in front of you or share ur woes? Do they initiate to do things such as celebrate ur bday when everyone is busy or plain lazy?

I credit "good friends" as pple who will gave you a phone call or good luck msg no matter how busy they are. Friends who will scold you for your own good. Friends who will understand and show empathy when you are doing wrong things. Friends who will re-arrange their appointment just to accomodate you. Friends who will gave their best to help you even if you didnt contact them for ages. Friends who will talk heart-to-heart with you w/o any motive. Friends who wont get angry with you even when they had brought a cake for you and yet you cldnt make it... Friends who will apologise when they are in a wrong. Friends who will pray for your well-being even when you are missing out...

Do you have such "good friends"?

I counted myself as lucky to have friends who had done all the above sweet stuffs. I will treasure them 4ever. I promise. Emo liao. haHs.